Now Do You Understand?

About a year and a half ago, these were the questions I constantly asked myself:

“Why God? Why is this happening to me?”

“How could this possibly fit into Your perfect will for my life?”

“I just don’t understand.”

I couldn’t comprehend what had happened to me. I didn’t want to understand.

While my detailed story would be a completely different entry, I finally got my answer to my question of WHY from God.

People always say (about any and every trial in life):

“In His timing you’ll understand. One day, you will get it.”

And while usually that is the case, it’s never hit me so clearly as it did just the other day.

I’m at work this past Saturday, cutting hair and within my normal, casual conversation, I ask:

“How’s (your daughter) doing?”

“Not good…I actually need to talk to you about a divorce lawyer.”

*Insert punch in the stomach, here!*

I never would’ve expected to hear these words from this lady. She’s just one of those people who has
one of those families that, while I know no one is perfect and she’s never claimed to be, they are truly the sweetest, most kind hearted human beings I’ve ever known.

And the story that followed her initial sentence almost brought me to tears right there at my
station. I couldn’t believe the situation her daughter was now going to be filing to get herself out of!

But God quietly whispered in my ear:

“Now, do you see why? Do you understand how I used your trial for my glory?”

This woman was asking me to help them! She was coming to me to help guide her daughter through the very thing that I had to endure.

As she walked out the door, I could just feel the complete sense of understanding and the natural want to help this woman’s daughter. I couldn’t help but smile, knowing God chose me to walk the valley I did so I could hold the hand of another child of His, walk through that exact
same valley.

God is GOOD y’all!!

xo.Stephanie

My Second First Blog Post….

Okay…I’m going to try this blogging thing again.  I never know what to write about; what will even interest people in the slightest, but it’s something that I’ve always wanted to do.  And let’s be honest: my first go around didn’t pan out to be much, so here’s to second chances!

I feel I need a place to come to think: a home for all my crazy, scattered thoughts; to get my ideas, struggles, prayers and whatever else I have to offer into black and white.  And I ask myself:

“Why not just journal?  Why do you feel the need to ‘blog’ it?”

Answer: I’ve tried the journaling thing and I literally forget to pick up the pen and write in them; I feel like a weirdo for writing to myself; but mainly because I lose them after about a month or two.  My great-grandkids are going to find notebooks one day and be like

“So, Granny Steph was craaaaazy…”

And then I guess I have the hope that whatever God lays on my heart to share one day will touch someone, in some sort of way.  One of my Christmas presents from my parents was a new devotional and just since the beginning of the year, God has already spoken to me, so many times.  He uses the most basic things to say:

“See?  You never thought about this verse in this way and I’m using my Word to speak to you and I want you to share these things!”

1 Peter 2:9 says: “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light;”

God chose me!  Not only to be His child and spend eternity in Heaven with Him, but He chose me to share that good news with everyone I can!  That is what He put me on this earth to do!

So while many of my coming posts may not interesting at all to anyone, I know God chose me and the need to write all this out for a purpose.  We’ll just have to wait and see what that will be!

xo.Stephanie